Post by Springtrap on Jan 10, 2016 23:46:34 GMT -5
Hi everyone,
I apologize for the wall of text. I am new here, but I was on BG for years (but that was a long time ago). Anyway, I will try to make this as short as possible. Around 6 DPO I had what I believe to be implantation bleeding. I patiently waited that horrid 2 week wait to see if I was pregnant. I started having symptoms after about 10 days after the slight bleed I believed to be implantation... the main symptoms being nausea every day at 11:00 am sharp, vivid dreams, sore breasts, slight constant crampy feeling, starving constantly, and smells were intensified. I have been pregnant 4 times (2 were healthy and 2 were lost), so I know what pregnant feels like. On the day AF was due, nothing. I tested, BFN. The next day no sign of AF, BFN. 3 days later (today) another BFN.
This afternoon I noticed a pretty significant amount of blood when I used the restroom, but it was mixed with a pretty good bit of CM. I figured OK, my body is being stupid, I was a few days late, AF is here... but a while later I found it odd that I didn't have cramps like I usually do, and when I went to change my tampon, there was nothing on it. Literally nothing.
Still getting a BFN. I'm going to the doctor in the morning.
I guess I am typing all this out because I HATE this not knowing. I know the heartbreak of losing a baby, even early on. I don't know if I am pregnant or if my body is being a royal douchebag to me or what. I guess I am just maybe looking for similar stories or support or... something. I haven't told any family or friends, just my SO and my best friend. SO doesn't really know what to think. He wants to believe I am pregnant, and he is talking to me as if he knows for sure I am pregnant (earlier tonight my 6 year old said something about his Pancham Pokemon, and Craig (SO) thought he said pampers. He then said "I have pampers on the brain. We are going to be buying a lot of them"), and my best friend doesn't have kids so she doesn't understand the wait, the fear, the struggle of losing a baby, the uncertainty. She is trying to understand, but she can't. I just want someone that can say hey, I understand.
I apologize for the wall of text. I am new here, but I was on BG for years (but that was a long time ago). Anyway, I will try to make this as short as possible. Around 6 DPO I had what I believe to be implantation bleeding. I patiently waited that horrid 2 week wait to see if I was pregnant. I started having symptoms after about 10 days after the slight bleed I believed to be implantation... the main symptoms being nausea every day at 11:00 am sharp, vivid dreams, sore breasts, slight constant crampy feeling, starving constantly, and smells were intensified. I have been pregnant 4 times (2 were healthy and 2 were lost), so I know what pregnant feels like. On the day AF was due, nothing. I tested, BFN. The next day no sign of AF, BFN. 3 days later (today) another BFN.
This afternoon I noticed a pretty significant amount of blood when I used the restroom, but it was mixed with a pretty good bit of CM. I figured OK, my body is being stupid, I was a few days late, AF is here... but a while later I found it odd that I didn't have cramps like I usually do, and when I went to change my tampon, there was nothing on it. Literally nothing.
Still getting a BFN. I'm going to the doctor in the morning.
I guess I am typing all this out because I HATE this not knowing. I know the heartbreak of losing a baby, even early on. I don't know if I am pregnant or if my body is being a royal douchebag to me or what. I guess I am just maybe looking for similar stories or support or... something. I haven't told any family or friends, just my SO and my best friend. SO doesn't really know what to think. He wants to believe I am pregnant, and he is talking to me as if he knows for sure I am pregnant (earlier tonight my 6 year old said something about his Pancham Pokemon, and Craig (SO) thought he said pampers. He then said "I have pampers on the brain. We are going to be buying a lot of them"), and my best friend doesn't have kids so she doesn't understand the wait, the fear, the struggle of losing a baby, the uncertainty. She is trying to understand, but she can't. I just want someone that can say hey, I understand.
